The bad weigh ins, giving up and starting over.

Everyone has bad days, everyone makes mistakes, but when it comes to weight loss there’s often a feeling of all or nothing. 

In the beginning of november 2020, I had a bad weigh in. I hadn’t gained any weight, but I hadn’t lost any either. This wouldn’t have bothered me normally, but I was working so hard..I had even thrown in extra exercise and started walking the track (a mile there and back + 4 laps.) Every week. To add to my frustration, the 13 year old hamster Zach, had lost 6 pounds that month no problem, even giving minimal effort to work out. 

So what did I do? As an all or nothing perfectionist, I let this one failure drag me down. I didn’t care that I had lost 45 pounds from march to november (around 9 months.) I just saw that I wasn’t doing enough…and I gave up. Then, we restarted in december at the beginning of the month. 

So, long story short..Our 2 and a half months of giving up, has really hit us hard. Although we went back to work in December of 2020, with christmas and all the other distractions we didn’t give the healthy diet our all, and even though we did do our exercises most days, Zach and I have paid for it dearly. In January, Zach and I both were reweighed for the first time since november. 

Zach has gained back 25 pounds since november putting him back at 252. 

I have gained back 24 pounds putting me at 245. 

And..I almost cried..I’ve worked so hard the past month and a half to get back on track. 

But..Will I give up this time? Absolutely not. I’m not going to kill myself to work harder either. I know this works, what we’ve done here has impacted our lives so positively. 

I will continue, and not let my wounded pride and let down derail me. Had I not given up my last weigh in I would probably be closer to 200 by now. 

I debated for a long time whether or not to share our bad news..because I didn’t want anyone reading this to give up because of my mistakes..still there is a lesson here, and a need for people to sew our story in its full messy color. 

You are human, we are too. And mistakes only become tragedies when we fail to see them as lessons but let them define us instead. 

So we’ll continue, and give it our all despite the bad days. Next month hopefully the scales will show all our hard work. 

Remember, be kind to yourself. 💜